It’s been a mixed couple of weeks for me, last week I was very busy so I really wanted to relax and enjoy the sunshine this week, I managed for the most part with a few hiccups along the way.
Well little things have been building up this year and last night really kicked off my anxiety
January hasn’t been the best month, wheelchair issues, care issues, Mum has had an operation on her knee, I’ve been feeling very stressed & my anxiety has been high, this along with feeling generally ill & low has meant I haven’t got out much.
I have been struggling a bit with being in my chair, my chest has been achey when first getting up and I’ve been having to recline after a while as I come over feeling nauseous and like I may pass out, I needed this trip to prove to myself that I was still capable of going further than the local shops and that this wasn’t the symptom of something more serious.
Last Sunday was a really beautiful sunny day in Gloucestershire so I decided to visit WWT Slimbridge, my friend and her daughter were supposed to be coming too, unfortunately their car broke down so it was just me and grumpy (Mum). I am not sure why but my anxiety has started playing up again (last night won’t of helped, but that’s another story), I started getting anxious before setting off, feeling a bit queasy, hyper alert etc. it’s getting annoying and ruining a bit of the enjoyment of going out, but I pushed passed it and by the time we arrived was pretty calm.
This morning was a reminder that you never fully get over anxiety and that it can sneak up anytime.
I had a training session with DROP on marketing in Gloucester, not a great distance, especially considering what I have been doing, and training doesn’t worry me at all, but on the way my anxiety started to build and my stomach churn, irrational thoughts started entering my head